Through My Bullet Proof Vest

I wrote this post a few weeks back now, I just hadn't put it up cause I needed to take out some of the emotion in it, it was coming from a place inside me that had been brewing for so long I just had to take the reigns in a little bit and rethink it and do massive editing!!....

When you heartbreaks,or all hope is lost, its like being shot through a bullet proof vest. Hurts like hell, but underneath it all you are still alive. Holding on.

Thats life, Adele said it well -

"Nothing compares No worries or cares Regrets and mistakes They are memories made. Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste? Never mind, I'll find someone like you I wish nothing but the best for you Don't forget me, I beg."

You know whats funny in life is that sometimes you are really just genuinely happy for someone if they could only have shared that with you. Like even though it hurts, you are still uber happy that they happy. So in the end its not ALL bad...but in my heart and soul, I feel that all hope is not lost , but in my mind, I know that this might just be the end of the road.

On another note why on earth are Men so "emotionless"? I reckon thats where men and women are so different. Men walk away from situations, keep their feelings inside and don't express anything! Women on the other hand, we express our every emotion, we don't just bottle it up. If I want to know something, Damn right I am going to ask it. I am so sick and tired of having to tread carefully around Men so that we don't scare them. SCARE THEM? What are they? 2 year olds? like really, Man Up already.

So tired of the guessing game we have to play to obtain such little insight of the person inside, and even then, you don't really know, you are still just guessing.

It could be true that in life, you are only as happy as your saddest day. On that day, truth be told you are honest with yourself and let yourself REALLY get to know you. On that day you realise your happiness is merely derived from the fact that you have been blocking issues from you mind, on that day you visit reality.

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What Women Really Want...!

In recent weeks, I have been seeing alot of articles answering the age old question "what do women really want?", and what I want to know is WHO ARE THESE WOMEN? I read one just the other day and I was so appalled at its contents, Infact I was SO appalled that I decided on 2 things.

1)I was not going to finish the article....(It was atrocious really)

2)I was going to do my own article and set the record straight!

Firstly I would like to make it known that women are so unique that there is not any one women on earth (not even Dr. Whatsherface) that can generalise every womens desires into one "wish list." Women are driven by so many aspects of life that you can't even begin to compare us. Yes, we do have some common ground on what we want, but at the same time, my Mr Right may not be Mr Right for the next lady. (Thats why he's mine right??)

I can safely say at the top of every womans wish list lies this intriguing and almost unattainable desire for stability. Now stability can not be confined to any one thing, we want stability in it ALL. Its what we work for and wake up to do everyday. For some women its Financial stability, some its relationship stability, career stability , friendship stability, reputation stability etc etc, basically all these put together give rise to one very important stability - MENTAL stability. Its like its a perfect balance that we need ( unique to every woman) and if we go with out any one of the stabilities then we temporarily lose the end game , that being - Mental stability. So when we go off the rails and do "wierd stuff" its because one of our stabilities is not in perfect parity and we will get back on the rails as soon as it is, or as soon as we get over it (usually the first to occur of the two).

At the end of the day, theres usually two types of women. The career woman and the family woman. They are willing to sacrifice almost anything for their number one priority. Career woman are usually ready to give up on their social lives and even their family in order to achieve the big dreams and get that financial stability. So the career woman aka Miss Independent (MI) is protrayed to be this attractive yet unattainable woman, and Men love it. Only problem is this woman is NOT interested in Men.. Miss Independent is exactly that INDEPENDENT.

Sometimes the MI's of this world are scorned women who can't bear the thoguht of depending on a man ever again - so they are making it happen without men. Another breed of Miss Independent is the daughters of succesful men, these ladies are impeccable, with first class education they are equipped from day 1 with all the MI tools and they are such go getters. They have no problem sacrificing their emotions and trading them in for some ambition.

The Family woman is not at all driven in the career department, she lives from pay cheque to pay cheque and spends most of her time and money trying to find Mr Right and trying to look her best. She will make the perfect housewife, and unlike the career woman, she would LOVE being taken care of and not having to go to work, instead committing herself to a life time of bearing children and raising them. To be honest I think the bearing and raising children deal is alot harder than the career one.

So theres the two main stream types of women. I will cover more in future posts :-)If you didn't know - NOW you know.

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