Through My Bullet Proof Vest

I wrote this post a few weeks back now, I just hadn't put it up cause I needed to take out some of the emotion in it, it was coming from a place inside me that had been brewing for so long I just had to take the reigns in a little bit and rethink it and do massive editing!!....

When you heartbreaks,or all hope is lost, its like being shot through a bullet proof vest. Hurts like hell, but underneath it all you are still alive. Holding on.

Thats life, Adele said it well -

"Nothing compares No worries or cares Regrets and mistakes They are memories made. Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste? Never mind, I'll find someone like you I wish nothing but the best for you Don't forget me, I beg."

You know whats funny in life is that sometimes you are really just genuinely happy for someone if they could only have shared that with you. Like even though it hurts, you are still uber happy that they happy. So in the end its not ALL bad...but in my heart and soul, I feel that all hope is not lost , but in my mind, I know that this might just be the end of the road.

On another note why on earth are Men so "emotionless"? I reckon thats where men and women are so different. Men walk away from situations, keep their feelings inside and don't express anything! Women on the other hand, we express our every emotion, we don't just bottle it up. If I want to know something, Damn right I am going to ask it. I am so sick and tired of having to tread carefully around Men so that we don't scare them. SCARE THEM? What are they? 2 year olds? like really, Man Up already.

So tired of the guessing game we have to play to obtain such little insight of the person inside, and even then, you don't really know, you are still just guessing.

It could be true that in life, you are only as happy as your saddest day. On that day, truth be told you are honest with yourself and let yourself REALLY get to know you. On that day you realise your happiness is merely derived from the fact that you have been blocking issues from you mind, on that day you visit reality.

picture from:http://dedica.la/artist/Adele#.TsW3pD0k6so

Back like I never Left - The Dreaded Valentines Day!

So, its been a while since my last blog post (over a year, but I am sooo here to do this now,after uni commitments and all that are all out of the way :)

So I am thinking,lets do this like sex and the city a little. So Valentines day is coming Ladies....for those that are single (cringe) this is the worst time of year after new years. There's nothing like counting down after new years and having couples around you kiss into it (who needs a kiss anyway)...So Valentines, this takes me back to high schoo when we would all gather around and have our "gifts" ( flowers, teddy's or even underwear ;) handed out and you walked out of that room with nothing in hand, it was a sad sad feeling. Nowadays, we can just hide out in our houses for that week, ignore al the ads and hope to get to a time when its forgotten.

There is this modern thing on planning a girls day before/on valentine's...let me tell you now, it doesnt work!...there will be couples anywhere worth going and there will be red coming out of your nose....my best trick for valentines day is your imagination...just make it what you will, we all pretend what it would be like to receve all sorts of lavish gifts, (NOT GONNA HAPPEN), but no one said don't imagine, running away from it will make you feel worse, grab a good action or thriller and sit by the couch and indulge yourself. The day only lasts 24hours but the marketing....damn the marketing.

Anyways, I gots to go, got an exam coming up, its just one day, we can do this :)

Much love and more

Miss89